Dreaming Pt.4

I had a new dream for my life and I was having an emotional meltdown. Have you ever felt like you were on a roller coaster but didn’t know how to get off? That was me. The blasted thing would not stop.

Luckily I was working at the time. The meltdown came just after I started my job, I had already put aside my DBDS dreams for the moment, and I saw myself crumbling. It was a horrible feeling, with the sleepless nights and the immense turmoil I felt I just wanted it to end. Having had suicide strike my family before I couldn’t do that to family but I did want to die if things did not change. I am very fortunate for a childhood friend.

It was like the story of Humpty Dumpty, I was broken and people were trying to put me back together again. My childhood friend got me connected with a counselor that wasn’t practicing at the time but took me on because of my current state. In the midst of counseling I also reached out to someone who soon plays a bigger role in my life, and that also happens to be psychiatrist but a good friend. If not for these two and a few others I can’t say I would be here today. (If you are going through something similar, I promise their is hope and it will not last forever.)

We are getting closer to the present and much is still un-lived.

In the process of everything I did discover what I really want from life, my life’s dream if you would. More than anything I want to be a husband and a father, to have a family. That is what I learned from Dream But Don’t Sleep and carried in and out of one of the darkest moments in my life.

I encourage whatever you could be facing, grab a hold of something you want more than anything and it will strengthen you to carry you through.