8yrs ago I was on a path to change my life forever but as the time came closer I decided against it. I was going to subject myself to going under the knife and have the Gastric Bypass surgery done because I thought I was tired being the token fat guy. The Director of Medicine was impressed with my mental state of mind and had approved my surgery. I would have lost the weight I am trying to lose now, actually I gained 60lbs from that point.See I passed their psychology screening but my mind was not ready. And, it took me a number of years to get to the place where I am mentally prepared and strong enough to do this but this time I am doing this a healthier way and not getting cut, well not by a knife at least.Yes, there are times I wish this would just be done with it already. Those who have started after me have passed me, and to be honest that just sucks at times to see but I cheer them because I know their battle. They are not me and I am not them. Each journey has its own characteristics and thats what makes it yours and unique.
"Is it your job to make us cry?" She asked as she wiped her tears with her shirt. I responded with "Not exactly but it is my goal because if I can break you will get breakthrough." She left smiling and laughing and I knew it had worked.When did crying become a bad thing? We all do it! It's like the two things we don't talk about is pooping and crying, bad analogy? Maybe. But the point is crying is not a bad thing. Crying is nothing to be embarrassed of.I get it. There is a negative connection with crying – pain of some sort but part of the healing process is letting those tears and those emotions go and flow. It is my thought that because we don't allow that built up emotion flow we are creating a worse and longer painful moment by causing ourselves to suffering.Do yourself this favor, allow yourself to cry.It will be ok